Long-distance relationships suck. I don't think anyone really argues against that point, and if they do, they should be evaluating why they don't prefer being close to their partner. But it isn't just "living far away" that is frustrating, there's so much more to the struggle. And as I think about the little absences in my life having you a continent away, I wonder how I love you so terribly much.
I miss how you warmed up my feet when they were cold. I miss how you always went to look for my robe when I was at home. I miss having your hand just a reach away in the back of the cab. I miss curling up to watch TV, feeling your laughter against my head. I miss the sparkle in your eye when we go shopping and you want me to try on the most ridiculous dresses. I miss how you cross the street with me. I miss the excitement on your face when you hand me cotton candy. I miss the weight of your head as you slept on my shoulder.
Technology is wonderful, and it has made our time together a lot easier. But these are all things that technology cannot replace. Because technology can never replace the wonderful feeling of having you right by my side.
I've been a single adult for quite a few years, although not as long as some I know. And I don't pretend to claim 26 as a wise, old age. But there have been many moments in my life that I have struggled with a problem, traveled somewhere new, arrived home discouraged, learned something interesting, fought with a friend, etc that I have thought, "I wish someone were here to share this with me." Don't get me wrong, I love the life I have lived, and I wouldn't change these last 26 years at all. But there have been times I wished someone was there. For many years it was my family, and then in very special moments my friends have filled that void, but there is a melancholy realization that they won't be there for all of what you live. And when you go home at the end of the day, the only thing that greets you is a computer.
But supposedly this has all changed now. I found that "somebody" that I want to share my life with. Well, the reality is, that even though it is temporary, I still come home to a very empty house. I still cook, clean, shop, etc by myself. But here is the good difference. I no longer want somebody at my side. I want him.
I don't want someone to hold my hand during a movie, I want him to squeeze my hand in the parts that scare me most and make fun of me when I jump. I don't want someone to watch The Big Bang Theory with me, I want him there, staring at me like a stalker because he loves my geek laugh. I don't want someone to wash my dishes with me, I want him to come over and make fun of me for how many dirty dishes I have piled up but then wash them without a word of complaint. I don't want someone to run to the grocery store when I realize I'm missing an ingredient for a recipe I'm making, I want him to come back with 3 extra bags of random purchases he knew would make me smile. I don't want someone to listen to my problems, I want him to ask how he can make me happy, because he always does. I don't want someone who asks how work was, I want him here to inspire me so much I can't wait to go back to the office. I don't want someone to eat the cookies I bake, I want him to tell me that these are the best cookies he's ever eaten. I don't want someone to laugh with me when something is funny, I want him to make me laugh when nothing is funny. I don't want someone to ask me what I want to do for fun tonight, I want him to fill me with sugar because he knows how much more fun I'll be on a sugar rush. I don't want someone to kiss, I want him to love.
I don't just want someone anymore. I want him. I want him here with me.
Hay aventuras que no esperas que sucedan, hay aventuras que las planificas y esperas que te pasen, hay aventuras que esperas y que nunca pasen. Hay de todo.
Pero hay aquellas en las que no estás solo, vas acompañado y disfrutas de cada nuevo giro de la historia, donde no hay bueno ni malo, sino oportunidades para disfrutar, aprender, saborear la delicia de existir cada día. Hay aventuras en las que con tu puedo y con mi quiero, vamos untos compañera.
No fui yo, Bennedeti fue quien dijo esa frase, pero hoy me "inzpira" más que nunca. Tu tan allá, yo tan aquí. Y es que no es nada para nosotros 5625.3 kilometros que nos separan. Bueno si es, debo confesar que el sabor de tus labios aunque jugemos al -thumbkiss- no, no es los mismo. Y tu sonrisa, por más retina que sea la pantalla, no, no es la misma.
Muchos se preguntarán como hemos sobrevivido -aunque no somos los primeros- en intentar y saborear la distancia. Lo cierto es que hay dos claves: 1) Un puedo y un quiero. 2) El Eterno. Cuando logras entender como pareja la real ecuación del amor, las cosas cambiar realmente y la perspectiva de lo que quieres hacer con tu relación es otra, ¿cuál es esa ecuación? Simple: 1+1=1.
Ayer fue el día de Valentín, -donde todos nos profesamos amor- aunque para ser honesto prefiero hacerlo en los otros 364 días del año que me sobran, diariamente. Y el lunes que viene -el 18- será nuestro primer año juntos.
La aventura con sazón a intercambio cultural ha tenido de todo. Y se viene mucho más con los planes con los que soñamos: Mr. Inz goes to Washington. Pero esa es otra historia que merecerá su propia página.
He descubierto que no podemos dejar que las circunstancias limiten nuestra felicidad.
He descubierto que solo tu -y tu pareja- son responsables de ser honestos consigo mismos y de disfrutar: vivir.
He descubierto.
Como salvas la distancia, no hay recetas, pero si tips:
Conversar siempre -tener iphones los dos :) -
Buscar aventuras juntos, aunque estemos lejos, jugar -drawsomething-
Compartir gustos -libros, series tv, música, cine-
Hacer planes al futuro -ir de compras, compartir los proyectos personales-
Vivir.
Hace unos días me preguntaron como sabes si la otra persona es la indicada para tu vida. Al responderle me dí cuenta de que nunca lo sabras, absolutos no hay. Lo que sabes es que puedes leer las señales y decidir ser mejor tu para el/ella.
Resucito cada día, anhelando tu sonrisa.
Es mi quiero y mi puedo, tus labios en mi oido.
Tus pupilas dilatas, felices me susurran
que las estrellas ya son nuestras
Los latidos de tu alma, muy fuerte presionan
mis manos en tu piel,
una delicada melodía sale de tu boca,
juntos, para ti, para mi, para nadie más.
Son tus pies los que buscan los míos
prestos para emprender
cuanta aventura vengan
con dragones y molinos
por el Hades o los Eliseos,
juntos.
Cada noche muero, en el dulce sueño
a tu lado, esperando inciar
otra mañana a tu lado
juntos.
No hay recetas, para el amor. Un día hace más de un año y algo nunca imaginé que -tecnicamente- podría quedar enamorado tan profundamente de Angela. Hoy con casi dos años, no puedo pensar en un mañana sin ella. La vida ha sido clara conmigo: Ama con todas tus fuerzas. Se feliz con todas tus energías. No pierdas tiempo viviendo la vida de otros. Vive.
Con tu puedo y con mi quiere, vamos juntos compañera.
En este video se resumen -vagamente- un año de aventuras.
